In-law problems?

[buds]

Yes, extremely busy i'm afraid.

So i just hop on one thread &
another and recap with quick
glances to catch up... or else
sure my CA1 fail. :rotflmao:

[buds]

Big one escalate into mountain wan..

Sigh. Still cannot share yet. It's not over...
when it's finally over... so i ren ren ren & still ren.

Hubs indifference is not helping much either. I reali
dunno how much longer http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=saalGKY7ifU&feature=related and oonnn..
and onnnn.. and onnn... and onn and oooooonnn... :rotflmao:

Wah seh.. sollie hor. :salute:

Wo siao :siao: liao. :politebleah:

Like i said in my back posts.. only 2 special people can make me go :siao:
that is : MIL (Number 1) and Hubs (Number 2)... :idea: ... so imagine
now both together. :faint:

[Andaiz]

macam double whammy - or as they say in \"sound waves\" theory, amplified or bigger than the sum of 2! :faint:

[buds]

I’m not tired, lovekidsverymuch… I’m dead exhausted.

Just 2 days ago, i felt so exhausted that i slept very
very early and to my surprise, very peacefully too.

This may not sound like a good thing… but i felt 2 nites
ago that i have been right all along and i know darn
well how hard i’ve tried to make things work. And that
nite i slept so well cos i know no matter what happens
now, it’s not my fault. Never. My conscience is crystal clear.

If hubs can’t shape the future for me, i guess i have and
i WILL shape my future for myself. I have gotten over self
pity… self-blame… self-esteem crumble… self-respect lost
and many other things to do with self. So now, i’m going
to think for myself… after 10yrs of empty promises… 10yrs
of forgotten and wasted chances that have given selflessly.

I am at a crossroad right now, but i know i am so much stronger
than before. 10yrs of training gave me the upper advantage. It’s
time to "take" now. No more of the giving. I’ve given enough & taken
none. The best part is… this time i will not trouble hubs with the option
to choose. Since he has been forever indecisive when it comes to his
immediate family… me and my girls… He doesn’t hafta choose anymore.
So he can live on without guilt that he was never unfilial to his family…

Since i’ve always been the black sheep, the unfilial one, the one who
cudn’t give birth to a boy to continue the family name, the one whom
they have always told people who gave them a hard time, the most
disrespectful, authoritarian, peck husband… hey… what’s another title
on top of those already, aye. Oh i forgot one more title… the whale.
Yep, FIL termed me a whale.

Andaiz, it’s not just double whammy. It’s left, right centre i already kena.
So i’m all whammed up.

So bring it on.

I’m ready.

[Andaiz]

love dusts to you, dear buds.... and a good, big :hugs: from me to you!

[buds]

Thanks sweetie. I suppose you knew i needed that. :hugs: you back.

[Andaiz]

Thank you...we're all on a journey together here....more travellers make it bearable! :love:

[tree nymph]

Buds,


Just do it.

[buds]

Tree nymph, your quiet understanding means a lot to me.


I truly appreciate it. :hugs:

[buds]

Andaiz:

Thank you...we're all on a journey together here....more travellers make it bearable! :love:

That sounds very good. I'll bear that in mind.