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[buds]

I'm feeling worse.


Mebbe from pent-up frustrations. I like to take things positively but I suppose it became too much for this last couple of days. It's easy for someone to console or advise to take time off but in reality it may not be that easy. Seriously, even helpers in SG gets a day off every week. I'm still nursing a cold that i got from taking care of the boys. We never left the house at all the week they got it. They have not been sick for awhile too. I hardly get sick myself, but if i do.. quite jialat case.. sure konked out.

Mebbe hubs is just in one of those moods.. where he's having a bad day. Mebbe that might explain some of the nastiness. But i am sick and i definitely don't wanna be. I didn't ask to be sick. I still hafta take care of two sick babies.. i'm having a rough week myself.. i'm hell woozy but still managing.. but i'm kinda exhausted.. like exhausted and exasperated from how i'm being taken not just for granted but literally like taken for a ride... time and again. I feel kinda stupid in a way.

No one went hungry.. i cooked.. ok, for instance.. like two nites ago, i cooked http://www.kiasuparents.com/kiasu/forum/viewtopic.php?p=1007000#p1007000. Would you believe me if i told you no one ate? Mebbe he ate out. Mebbe sick of home dishes. Ok, DD2 did eat later on and told me she was sorry for taking me for granted and asked how she could make up for it. She did. I cannot eat medication because i cannot be meds-whoozy since i have to care for the boys. She offered to massage me so she could take my body aches away. She said, she knew how it felt to have the flu. A child! A child telling me this you know..

In moments like this, it made me think back. I could've have chosen a way out when i had a choice when i came to a crossroad some years back. I'm pretty depressed and whoozed enuff to now think mebbe i should have just hit the road then...

I literally got my life, my family, my marriage back together again after years of :censored: :censored: :censored: and i guess i've finally come to a point where i am not even sure this is all worth it.

I'm just tired. Tired from everything.

Sorry guys, i'm having a rough emotional roller coaster within me. I'm just whooze-ranting. Thanks for all your love, kind words and well... everything you're trying to pump me up to feel better. I suppose this will take awhile.. Gotta go.

[Sun_2010]

Aww... buds, you have every right to be feeling low, I dunno what to say to make you feel better But i will say it anyway

buds:

I'm feeling worse.

Mebbe from pent-up frustrations. I like to take things positively but I suppose it became too much for this last couple of days. It's easy for someone to console or advise to take time off but in reality it may not be that easy. Seriously, even helpers in SG gets a day off every week.
And 8 hours of rest every day , sista. Honestly when did you get that last ?

I'm still nursing a cold that i got from taking care of the boys. We never left the house at all the week they got it. They have not been sick for awhile too. I hardly get sick myself, but if i do.. quite jialat case.. sure konked out.

Mebbe hubs is just in one of those moods.. where he's having a bad day. Mebbe that might explain some of the nastiness. But i am sick and i definitely don't wanna be. I didn't ask to be sick. I still hafta take care of two sick babies.. i'm having a rough week myself.. i'm hell woozy but still managing.. but i'm kinda exhausted.. like exhausted and exasperated from how i'm being taken not just for granted but literally like taken for a ride... time and again. I feel kinda stupid in a way.

No one went hungry.. i cooked.. ok, for instance.. like two nites ago, i cooked http://www.kiasuparents.com/kiasu/forum/viewtopic.php?p=1007000#p1007000. Would you believe me if i told you no one ate? Mebbe he ate out. Mebbe sick of home dishes.
Ahh its the little doubt devil at work. The moment the turn their back, kick them away. Saps our energy these little doubt monsters.

Ok, DD2 did eat later on and told me she was sorry for taking me for granted and asked how she could make up for it. She did. I cannot eat medication because i cannot be meds-whoozy since i have to care for the boys. She offered to massage me so she could take my body aches away. She said, she knew how it felt to have the flu. A child! A child telling me this you know..
Buds , you know the men dont geddit :roll:
One day buds_hubs will make up for it. Just you wait.

In moments like this, it made me think back. I could've have chosen a way out when i had a choice when i came to a crossroad some years back. I'm pretty depressed and whoozed enuff to now think mebbe i should have just hit the road then...
You said it - you are pretty depressed. These chemicals or lack of them - dopomaine , serotonium and their ilk make us think drastically.
And for all you know in a parallel universe you might have just done that - taken a different road :evil:

I literally got my life, my family, my marriage back together again after years of :censored: :censored: :censored: and i guess i've finally come to a point where i am not even sure this is all worth it.
This one I must tell you, loud and clear.
It is worth it.
E v e r y b i t !!
Even if you find it difficult to feel it now, it will be crystal clear to you tomorrow.

I'm just tired. Tired from everything.
:snuggles:
Physical tiredness is bearable.
Emotional tiredness is another story. Needs lots of TLC.

Sorry guys, i'm having a rough emotional roller coaster within me. I'm just whooze-ranting.
Ok , atleast now I know you are a human being.
Not a Super Robo Gal who was designed to make us all feel inferior.
Thanks for all your love, kind words and well... everything you're trying to pump me up to feel better. I suppose this will take awhile.. Gotta go.

The only thing that talks a little to me when i am feeling down is :hugs:

So here you go :grphug: :snuggles:

[sleepy]

buds:

Mebbe hubs is just in one of those moods.. where he's having a bad day. Mebbe that might explain some of the nastiness.
but i'm kinda exhausted.. like exhausted and exasperated from how i'm being taken not just for granted but literally like taken for a ride... time and again. I feel kinda stupid in a way.

Have a heart to heart talk with your hub when he's in a better mood. 解铃还需系铃人 He is the only person who can make you feel upbeat again

[iFirefly]

Buds.. I shall not try to console you, or tell you what you should or should not do (it's easier said than done, I know).. Everything that you wrote is not unfamiliar to me.. I just wana let you know, I understand how you feel and what you are going through now.. Yes, I really do.. :hugs: :snuggles:

[ngl2010]

buds... :snuggles:

[happyheart]

Buds,

Sorry things are not improving. I do not know how to comfort you but rest assured you can vent as much frustration as you need here. You will not be judged. :hugs: Sometimes hurtful words hurt so much you start to second guess if your very first best intention for the family is worthwhile. The fact that your little girl is so understanding, you have already gotten your answer. Take comfort in that
Do not feel alone, many of us have our high and low too. Perhaps this period is just too challenging for everyone at home, at school and at work. Calm yourself down and trust that what you are doing is for the best. Give time. Believe in yourself and Have faith.

[auntieM]

Buds.. :snuggles:

My thoughts and well wishes are with you sista.. ..
Perhaps non-drowsy type medication can do for your flu..
Take good care..

[BeContented]

:love: :snuggles: to buds

[ammonite]

It’s tough to be sick with 2 very young kids. Drop everything, tell your older dds to order food in or buy back for the rest of you. Or just eat instant noodles/sandwiches! Put on a funny video and just chill. Take the two small ones to bed with you.

[piyobaby]

Buds.....jiayou!! :rahrah: